Tonight I lay in bed near my sassy sweet two year old as she fell asleep. Earlier she had lost it and completely had a melt down. This was mostly due to lack of a nap and LOTS of sugar but also I think she's just letting out her frustration with this whole situation. The poor girl has to transition from being the baby to having a baby sister, then moving to Grandma's house, THEN having daddy leave for a reeeaaalllly long time. And then has to deal with a mother who is trying to find her way through all of this as well.
Don't get me wrong, we've had lots of fun and a tremendous amount of help. But our little family is struggling to find where we are in this stage of our lives. And its kinda hard, especially knowing that once we get in our 'groove' and figure things out we'll be moving again to a completely new world.
The kids are doing amazingly well all things considered, and I try to not get too mad at them when they lose it. Heaven knows I need their forgiveness when I lose it (which is a lot). I can tell they struggle with not having me around a lot too. They've gotten really clingy lately and always want mom to stay with them/get their breakfast/tie their shoes/play with them/put them to bed/etc. And its a little tiring. For goodness sake there are 3 other adults in this house! I commend single mothers out there everywhere because frankly its the pits.
But when Audrey cried for me to lay with her until she fell asleep tonight, I couldn't help but let everything else go and just be there for my little girl. Breathe in her sweet smell, hold her close, watch her little twitches as she fell fast asleep. I know its not always going to be peachy. But I hope that I am strong enough to be my children's constant and to let them know that they haven't gotten lost in this crazy clutter of events.
7 comments:
So sweet Heather. Posts like this just emphasis again how good of a Mom you are!!
made your own mom cry with pride
Oh my! I can so relate to this post. It's so hard not having the hubby around. I had NO IDEA. It sucks so bad. It's awful! haha :) But I love this post. Thanks for it!
A very tender post during a tender phase... loved it. It made me remember that Eli went through a phase where I had to be the only one to make his oatmeal, help him do this, do that, etc. It drove me crazy, but I guess it was his way of responding to all our changes. It is wonderful how you realize you are their constant. Day by day, you're doing great!
This is such a sweet post. It's always been my experience that the hardest time for the former baby of the family hits about two or three months after baby arrives, and poor little Audrey is dealing with a LOT more than just the arrival of a new sister. Good for you for creating (and recording) this special memory with her.
And big kudos to you for holding it together for your little family! It's got to be hard -- I think you are amazing. Thank you for your example. :-)
Love this post. I can totally understand what you are going through (not with the 3rd baby thing) but with being out of your element and having kids trying to adjust.
Thanks for posting it, it really brought tears to my eyes because it is the important times, such as cuddling a baby, that we want and bring peace to our world.
Hope you guys are well.
You are a trooper! And a super mom!!!
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