Haven't blogged for awhile, feeling the need to, and also feeling the need to just vent. Randomness really. You might just wanna skip this one....
Where oh where to start? I think I am just ready for this baby to come. My emotions are toying with me, and having a toddler who is cute stinking adorable one minute and a terror the next isn't helping. I really am feeling at my wits end, and like I just don't want to go on much longer. Only 12 more days until my due date, but lets pray this little (well, hopefully little!) girls comes SOON. Don't get me wrong. Being pregnant this time around has been awesome. But I am the size of a country and am in pain constantly. It breaks my heart to tell Isaac that I can't do this or play that because I'm too tired, too big, too sore, etc. Maybe I'm just not being grateful for what I have, but this is my venting post darn it and I want to be whiny for awhile.
Speaking of whiny...what is it about turning two that changes a child instantly? I was telling my friend today that maybe its because Isaac is normall SOO well behaved, and when he's not I loose it. But the suddenness of throwing, hitting, and constant defiance is wearing, ya know? And boy, when that kid whines, he doesn't stop! I am grateful that he can talk and can do it so well, but when he's not getting what he wants, he will sure let you know. And KEEP letting you know. And doesn't stop. Its funny for about 30 seconds. And then I wish he was mute.
On a positive note, I really have to say how grateful for my husband I am. He has made these last few weeks bareable and saved me from cutting this baby out myself (yes, the thought has crossed my mind). He's even gone as far as to honestly suggest that he stay home from work for a few weeks to help with things that I just am not up to taking care of (ie: everything). And though that idea sounds nice, I know he would go insane staying at home all day and not working. And having two insane people probably wouldn't help anything. I couldn't name everything he's done because there's so much, but know that the list could probably fill a book the size of a dictionary.
Whew. I already feel better. I'll probably delete this post eventually, but boy does writing things down feel AWESOME!
Moving on and pressing forward......
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2 weeks ago
11 comments:
I LOVE to hear you vent!!! We all feel that way one time or another so it's good to see YOU are normal. It gets better with the two's but not until they're four. I'm off to clean up the entire box of oatmeal that Cami poured on the table and the honey she added on top. Isn't Motherhood great!! Hang is there- love you!!!
At least it's almost over. I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one going insane (makes me feel normal). Hang in there.
ahh Heather, venting is healthy and normal. The twos are hard. I rememeber with Maddie there would be days when James got home from work, I would say hi and bye and go for a drive.. Alone. Just to get my head back in the game. I was always remind to rememeber how frustrating it is for them when they try and get something across to you and it doesn't work and they can't figure out how come. Its just as frustrating to them as it is to us... As for the huge belly.. It is an adorable belly and a gift from God that you have one. Might be hard, but try and enjoy these last few weeks. We've all been there. Who wants to wait another two weeks wehn we've already waited 38! Love you and take care of yourself and your family. Best wishes
Ahhh... hang in there. It will be all worth it when you see that precious little face! You bring that little man up anytime, or call me when you need a break, and we'd be happy to have him over to play! Really! Avie would be just thrilled! And venting, an excellent way to get out your frustrations.... I think it's rather healthy really. You'll look back at this one day and realize the things you've gone through and see where you've been blessed!
You're almost there Heather! You can do it! The exhaustion has to escape from you at some point :) And just wait until your kids become teenagers...haha! You're a terrific mom and don't forget it. Also, don't forget to love yourself too :)
if i can do it, you can do it!
Im glad you are venting!! sometimes you just need to! Im so sorry I couldnt watch isaac i really would have. Please let me know what I can do to help you out! ok?
you're so cute heather- and you're more than welcome to vent anytime. it's not good to keep that all in so vent away my dear!! it sounds so difficult to have a two year old and be pregnant but i'm so jealous- i would do it in a heart beat. :) it'll all be worth it when you're holding your little princess-so sweet. :) sorry your emotions are whack and you're sore. :( hang in there sister, you're doing great! love you lady! :)
Heather, you're such a trooper! And you really don't look that big. You look great! All baby :) As you already know... because you are such an awesome mom... it will be all worth it.
well it's good to know you are human, sometimes your life seems a little TOO perfect! haha :) love ya girl, keep your chin up! :)
Heather, I'm glad you vented here. Sometimes that's all you need to do and then you feel better. Plus it's made me feel so much better about all the whining and complaining I've been doing lately and I don't have near as much on my plate. It's really hard being pregnant and I don't think anyone understands it until they've been through it. Don't get me wrong, it's completely worth it and I know there are many women who don't get the chance to experience pregnancy and I hurt for them because there are so many wonderful things, but it also is extremely hard and I can't imagine doing it with a toddler. I look up to you and I know you can do it! Just a few more days! You are amazing and if anyone can do it you can!!!!
And I'm so glad Cory took you out on a much needed date. He's such a good husband! Good luck with everything! I can't wait to see this little girl of yours!
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